Outing Myself a Little

Well, I guess it won't be secret too much longer any way so I can go ahead and tell whomever stumbles across this about my little secret...

Its not so secret that about a year ago I felt God was calling me to leave the school I was working at. I felt that little whisper on my heart and when I would acknowledge the whisper it felt like it got confirmed by others so when my contract came around to sign, I confidently turned it away knowing that I had a new path this year.

Then this fall no job came. I was very confused because I still had the confident "this is for a reason" feeling, but I had no "Reason" in sight.

I did, however, continue to pray. I opened my heart up to the possibility that God was working bigger than just a "new job" and started really tunning into the possibility that the whisper wasn't going to guide me to another school district- and it'd didn't.

You see my long term goals were to someday work in prechool. I absolutely adored my time working in the preschool. I love the kids, I love the singing, I love the type of learning that goes on in the school... I just always felt this was something I would wait until I had kids to do. But why?

I will spare the details of how God pulled on my heart on Sundays in sermons or meetings that mentioned the need for outreach and church growth and how He nudged me a little when I would talk about my long term goals as if there was no way they would work at this time.

I will tell you though that one I day I asked him if this could all be related. If He was maybe telling me that my goal to have a preschool and His goal to grow my church could somehow be tied together... I heard a yes. I have heard a lot more yeses over the past several weeks as I've researched and began working up my formal proposal to my church. A big yes was when my mom got on board with me (she's always worked with preschool age children, is an early childhood specialist, and oh yeah, opened a church preschool 25 years ago that was very successful), when Gavin got on board with me (this decision ultimately is his, too, seeing as we are turning into one here in a few months), and when Gavin's parents got on board (their support is also important to me).

So today is a meeting with a committee at church that works on the church visioning. I've got statistics and testimonys from other churches and cute little packet all put together... and more than anything, I've got teh confident that this is not just MY plan, this not just MY vision, this is the biggest thing that I've ever been a part of. I'm a littler nervous, but I'm mostly excited!!! I can't wait to see what God has for this new adventure for my church and all the kids that will be involved!!